“Even if she be not harmed, her heart may fail her in so much and so many horrors; and hereafter she may suffer–both in waking, from her nerves, and in sleep, from her dreams.” ― Bram Stoker, Dracula
“Thus fortified I might take my rest in peace. But dreams come through stone walls, light up dark rooms, or darken light ones, and their persons make their exists and their entrances as they please, and laugh at locksmiths.” ― Joseph Sheridan Le Fanu, Carmilla
As I continue my study of The Bohemian Gothic Tarot deck, it occured to me that it would make sense to discuss the cards in some chronological order. However, since I’m not at all a linear thinker, that idea was quickly eschewed in favor of a more instinctive bent. Hence, I’ll just be writing about whichever card strikes my fancy. And on this new moon, it is:
Nine of Swords
keyowrds: Nightmares. Visions. Terrors of the mind. Delusions. Phobias and hysteria. Fear of going mad.
Brings to my mind the works of Poe and Jackson. The artistic horrors of Bava and Argento.
Reflections on the card: While certainly most would consider this a negative card (and in many aspects it is), it also invokes in me a singular excitement. No doubt because dreams and nightmares often fuel my own stories.
“I delight in what I fear,” Shirley Jackson once said. Her Eleanor vance could have posed for this card.
We all have fears. They can control us, or we can turn them into our own works of art.
Alexander Scriabin’s Black Mass (Piano Sonata no. 9)